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Title: Known Facts About ME
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Blog Entry: I have severe depression I have Iron deficiency--for life I have severe migraines--for more than 4 years I have no relationship with either of my parents--or any of my relatives for that matter I have no friends I’ll never get married I’ll never be happy I’ll never fall in love or even in-like I’ll never succeed in life regardless of how much I try I’ll always be on medication I fear that I’ll end in a mental institute I fear that I’ll lose what’s left of my memory I fear that I won’t know who I’m I fear that I’ll be abandoned But mostly I fear that I wont live for long I’m not living…I’m just surviving. I don’t want to die, because I’m not ready to face ALLAH and I don’t have the confidence to stand before ALLAH as he decides my destiny, however this pain is powerfully overwhelming and thus as result I‘m psychologically and emotionally dead. I can't believe this is it. I can't believe I have to live with this demon--depression this very much looks like a battle that I'll not win...Bursts into tears. ALLAHU AKBAR!